It's been a long long time since I last enter here. We no longer have internet access at our new home, and I was always too busy....

I promised my son that i will return home early: he is 6 and half months old now, and he starts to prefer my company more than anyone else. It's a sweet feeling. In the morning after I left for work, my mother-in-law told me, that he would always look to the door and look for me, and when he doesnt see me, he would make lots of noise until he was brought outside the door, he would be quite then. He seems to be remeber that "mom" disappeared from that door, and "mom" will be found there.

I felt guilty for always finishing work late lately. Often it's 8pm when I enter the door again, and my son was already anxious and his searchful eye would lighten up when he saw me.

Raining day today. I read a bit of DELUKE last night, his golden word still ring in my brain: dont dismiss the simple, boring things, like a pianonist practise simply boring keys to perfect his art, I shall treat my boring, simply daily responsiblity with the same attitude.

Lifte slipped by and I am in middle 30 now. Looking back it's hard to believe that I am actually this old. 10 years ago didn't seem so long ago, would my whole life be gone like this, one day when i am old and all winkled up, i would sign the same way i sign today.

The image in the mirror change slowly, but gradually we would be shocked in one slip second: and ask ourself, my God, is this ME?

Thoughts of my son calls me home, I wish to put more words....small thoughts and delicate feelings, maybe unimportant but it will leave a small trace of my life, the soon be gone still youthful life.

What a shame it would be, one day when life has gone by, the only opportunity had been wasted, to live well and live fully, dreams nursed for a life time at the end still remains as DREAM. How sad it would be.

My son is the real sure creation i have made, and feel so steadily proud of. The rewards of parenting him is tremendous, he lightens my dream and stretch it further.